Sometimes, I don’t do it very well. But I keep doing it . . .
This blog is inspired by two articles I read lately about female writers: “The Price I Pay to Write” by Laura Bogart, which was itself a response to “‘Sponsored’ by My Husband: Why It’s a Problem That Writers Never Talk About Where Their Money Comes From” by Ann Bauer. Bauer wrote about how getting married and being supported financially by her husband had given her the time she needed to write. Bogart wrote in response about how she struggles without that sort of support — what writing is like when no one is sponsoring you.
Since then, I’ve seen several writers describe how they, individually, make it work . . . and I thought I would add my voice to the mix. I was particularly prompted by a friend, an editor, who posted on Facebook, “I’m pretty sure that people who write publishable books and also have full-time jobs are magical creatures, like unicorns.” Which makes me a unicorn, I suppose . . .
Because I have a full-time job, and a part-time job, and I write. I can’t afford to do it any other way.
Here’s how I do it. My full-time job is teaching undergraduate writing at Boston University. I teach a 3/3 schedule, which means that each semester I teach three classes. I’m in class nine hours a week, and then on top of that I prepare for class, meet with students, and comment on their papers. In a typical week, I’ll spend more than forty hours on my full-time job. And I’ll spend extra time making sure that I’m up on what I’m teaching, meaning that I’ve read the latest books and articles on the topic I’m teaching. After all, I’m supposed to be a scholar, teaching my students to think like scholars, or at least take the same time and care as scholars would in their research. Right now I’m teaching fairy tales, so all of that research is pure pleasure for me . . . I love reading fairy tale scholarship and keeping up with the popcultural discourse on fairy tales. I don’t always love commenting on grammar errors, but that’s part of my job — and honestly, I’ve learned a lot from doing just that. It’s not always the most comfortable job in the world — yesterday I walked several miles back and forth from classes in the cold and snow, because the trolley system isn’t working after our record snowfalls. But it gives me a steady income, health insurance, and most importantly the freedom to teach topics I love. I get to structure my own classes and much, although not all, of my own workday. I’m very lucky to have a job I love doing.
Or rather, two jobs I love doing. My second job is teaching graduate creative writing students in the Stonecoast MFA Program. Each summer and winter I go teach a residency at Stonecoast, and in the spring and fall, I mentor three to four students. I read and critique their writing, and we talk about writing issues. It’s more challenging, in terms of the writing issues involved, than teaching undergraduates: we’re focused not on the mechanics of writing, but on the art. On creating characters who come alive, a setting that you’re convinced is real. On moving a story at the right pace. On the practical side, these two jobs give me what I think of as a solidly middle-class income. Not as much as I earned my first year out of law school, twenty years ago. But as much as an experienced legal secretary would be earning. Enough for necessities and some luxuries. (By luxuries I mainly mean books.)
I have two extraordinary expenses that I can’t do much about. First, I live in Boston, which is one of the most expensive cities in the country. People from places like Asheville, North Carolina grow pale when I mention my rent. It takes up fully a third of my income, for a comfortable but certainly not large one-bedroom apartment. Second, I have a ten-year-old daughter, for whom I share responsibility. I want to make sure that she has what she needs, like clothes for a growing girl (the speed with which she destroys jeans is truly astonishing), and also some luxuries, like cello lessons and trips to the museum.
I consider myself very lucky: I can pay my bills, which include student loan payments from when I was in graduate school and pregnant with my daughter, so I couldn’t teach. I can afford some things that make life more comfortable and pleasant, like good chocolate. But I try to reduce my expenses as much as possible. I don’t own a car. I buy most of my clothes at either The Gap or Goodwill. I almost never go out to eat, and when I travel it’s usually because I need to be somewhere for a conference or research. It’s almost always on business.
So where does writing fit into all this? Well honestly, it fits into the nooks and crannies. It fits in whenever I can fit it in. I suppose it fits in where other people would be watching television? Or knitting, I don’t know. I try to fit it in wherever I can. Which means that I’m less productive than many of my friends who are making a living from writing. They simply have a lot more time to write. That’s the downside — the upside is that I’m not sure it makes a difference in terms of quality. If I weren’t working, I would probably be writing more — but I’m not sure I would be writing better. When I think about the writers I love, they didn’t write a lot, or at least not as much as it would have taken to support themselves simply by writing: Jane Austen, Willa Cather, Virginia Woolf, Isak Dinesen, Angela Carter. But they wrote supremely well. Some of them were lucky enough to be supported in various ways, but those were other times. I’m not sure being supported is a particularly good idea now, and I suspect that Austen, if she were alive today, would have a job. She would be supporting herself.
Who knows how it will work out for me. I hope the novel I’ve written is good, I hope I can write the sequel. I hope there will be other novels, short stories, essays, poems. There are times I get tired, times I get dispirited. But I think we all do, no matter our circumstances. For the most part, I love what I do.
So how do I do it? I just work very, very hard. Perhaps someday it will be easier — I’d like it to be. I’d like more time to write. But in the meantime, I fit writing in whenever and wherever I can. I suspect many of us do.
(This was me at Boskone last weekend, being the writer rather than the teacher or academic . . .)
I commented when you posted that article and reposted it myself. Then I wrote a blog post on it (obviously it hit home), where I wrote (tongue in cheek) of all the THEMS out there who have an easier time of being successful at writing or whatever they pursue than I do.
I’ve gotten over my jealousy of writers who don’t have to have other jobs. I’ve read too often of people who quit their day jobs only to get freaked out about all that empty time to write so they freeze up or don’t manage their time well. Instead, I wonder if writing is easier for people whose jobs are writing related like yours. Or maybe it’s easier if you have a job that doesn’t suck your soul dry.
I can compare and contrast my struggles versus others but what it comes down to is doing the work no matter what. It sounds like you have come to that same conclusion and have found a system that works for you. 🙂
Yeah…. I wrote “full time” (ok, I was unemployed! But writing WAS my only work for almost 2 years) and it’s definitely not the magic switch that you flip and the great American novel gets written. Don’t get me wrong, I know I was lucky, and I took advantage of the time I had to work. But the experience is totally different from what many people imagine, I think.
First of all, I’ve discovered I actually LIKE having other things to do, and particularly other things that come with a paycheck. It keeps writing fun, and I feel freer when I’m not desperate for my writing to pay the rent. Having a job – at least one that isn’t terrible, I know a lot of writers aren’t so lucky 😦 – keeps my brain active and I don’t freeze up trying to fill all the hours with creating stuff.
Also, It is also the case for me, and I think for others, that having more time doesn’t necessarily mean getting more things done. Some of my most productive writing periods have been squeezing in scribbles in between classes and running to work and riding busses and meeting family obligations and… When the days open up, I don’t necessarily fill them with all the productivity they could fit.
That being said, I definitely think it IS important for creators to talk about where the money comes from. Ignoring the business side of writing is not useful to anyone, especially now when writers may also have to be entrepreneurs, marketers, publishers etc…
I agree with both of you. I’ve felt envious of people who make a living from writing, but I’ve also seen how very few people do that comfortably. Most of my friends who make a living from writing struggle financially. Actually making a comfortable living from it takes a tremendous amount of luck, and a lot of time–most people write several novels before they get there.
I really love teaching. I do wish I had more time to write and a better balance, but I would not want to give up my day job. I like having a reason to get nicely dressed in the morning!
I enjoyed this post. The transparency was refreshing and inspiring. I need to go write for a few minutes, now.
Good luck! 🙂
I started several times to explain how I do it. That got too long. So I go back to when
I was 13 & 14 and wanted to be a writer and artist. I was female so I took out all the
memoirs and biographies of women writers, artists and actresses. I have always
followed what I learned.
Get a day job, although I often got night jobs.
I did have an unexpected curve of getting married and being supported for fifteen years. I had assumed I would not marry and have three children as I was more dedicated to art than housekeeping. Luckily for a long time my husband supported me as partners in the arts. Then, that changed.
Through many ups and downs I led two (or sometimes three or four) lives, and the
jobs provided me with so much vivid unusual events and people, I have enough
plots and wonders to last and become fairy tales or weird stories for the rest of my
I do that too–look at how other women artists have done it in the past. I think that’s such a good way to get both models to follow and perspective on your own career. 🙂
All the best with your novel and all the writing projects to come.
Thank you! 🙂
Very inspiring. I’ve always struggled with balancing a day job with the life of an artist. I’m doing art full-time right now because of certain circumstances, but I know that I’ll be needing to get that day job again soon, and am terrified that my creative projects will dwindle to nothing again.
Thinking of you on your birthday. So happy that you are doing what you love. I had a feeling you would. Sending admiration and respect.